2/14/23

I'm tired. 

I feel like if I close my eyes for atleast 5 seconds I'd fall asleep instantly. My legs feel disconnected from my body, is this what the "manananggal" feels every night? I respect them even more now. The time is currently 9:10PM, I will sleep after I write this. I don't have the power to stay awake for a few minutes longer. I don't even know how I have the energy to write this, my dedication for this goal of mine is too strong. Writing for long periods of time tires me out, I really feel out of shape. It used to be that I could write for hours and hours on end (though producing anything of quality is another story entirely). I hope I can get back to it soon.

I feel myself getting irritable, I keep checking my Facebook page for no new engagement. I should get up and walk around, but my legs won't allow me. I have to get up 8 hours from now, it would be best for me to sleep now. I hope I get to sleep now. I'll write about today tomorrow. Goodnight. 

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